Well I had a great time at Cedar Point and it was the first time I felt real fear riding the coasters. The Raptor just kicks ass! I was screaming like a school girl!! We never had to wait more than 10 minutes to get on any ride and there were lots of cute guys there to gawk at...yumm yumm! The blond boy running the one coaster was model perfect and made me weak in the knees!

The funeral was sad and funny at times but what happened afterwards I hope will be funny and a good story to tell later. A bunch of the family got together later at our our cousins house and were playing cards and had a cook out and generally a good time.What happened is that my one cousin got too tipsy cause he had done some tranquilizer pill the day before or that morning and then did some shots of bourbon and he knocked my Mom out of her chair and landed on top of her. She seemed all right but is sore and not getting better so later today we are going to the emergency room to get her checked out...what fun! She is afraid that it might have knocked her gall stones loose so we are gonna be safe instead of sorry. Well I guess I will find out in a few days cause they always gotta do test...fucking doctors dont really know shit!

I went the whole day yesterday without smoking one cigarette....it was fucking hell and I feel like shit. My head is pounding my teeth are clenched and my whole body aches. I feel like I am gonna puke a lot and am lightheaded...withdrawal is so fun : )
I don't know how in the hell anyone can say that cigs are not addictive as this is just hell but I have to quit as I want to be able to breathe again and the cost is just going to get higher for a pack of smokes. I am tired of waking up in the middle of the night and coughing till I puke and having to get a glass of water so I can get back to sleep. I don't want to have to go out in the freezing cold to get a pack of smokes. I don't want to run through the house like a madman looking in the couch for change to get another pack to feed the need.
I hope I can really quit this time as it is about the 5th time I have tried to quit this year and I cant even count how many times I have tried in the last twenty years! Wish me Luck!

Well I lasted till yesterday without smoking and am gonna try to quit again tomorrow. I don't feel that bad as quitting is a mother fucker and I knew it would not be easy.
I went to the ear doctor the other day and he said he has to operate on my ear again and will find out October 4th what this one will be all about. I had my ear bone replaced about 12 years ago and this is spose to be some kind of update operation? I am willing to do anything if it will help me from getting those damn earaches that hurt like all hell.
I have my tickets to Chicago and am working on a cheap room through work. I need to get out of Columbus and this trip will be a nice diversion.I want to go someplace new every three months at least..someplace I have never been but have wanted to go. I think New York City will be next or San Francisco but it could be anywhere? So watch out as Zillafag could invade your city...Scary huh!

I am extremely depressed and pissed off today as I found a great car for a great price and the damn car sales man..John R. Harder ...promised I would get the car and it was sold before I could sign all the paper work. It is a kinda long story but he promised that the car was mine if I got a co-signer with good credit and I did but the piece of shit was full of shit! Why is it that people fucking lie to you and are still able to face themselves in the mirror everyday? I just don't understand the whole concept of making a living out of fucking with peoples minds...I am not a violent person and have never been in a fight but if I met this guy in a dark alley alone I would beat the shit out of him! I cant remember being so pissed in my life....that fucking piece of shit!
My roommate was with me when the ass made his promise and he is just as pissed as me and I am gonna sick him on the assholes as he is much better at dealing with such problems. I was so happy yesterday when I thought I was gonna pick up my car today and then I called about meeting Mr. fuckass car sales man and he told me it was already sold....I couldn't believe my ears and when I asked him why he started babbling about someone came in with cash and I just hung up on the FUCK. I had to wait till 12:30pm to call him as he would be back from church then.... Church Of The Lying Fucks... I assume. I just hope my roommate can get something accomplished by contacting the manager as this whole deal has be totally whacked out...I cant sleep thinking about it and it just enforces my hatred for mankind which I have plenty of already.

John R Harder at Budget Car Sales is a lying piece of shit!